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Today I am officially starting my Mid Life Crisis, I mean blog! LOL  This is exciting, scary and hysterical all at once!

HYSTERICAL because my whole academic career (although a long time gone),  I made it a point not to write. I got out of the most intense writing class in high school, took classes in college based on the amount of writing needed , decided NOT to go to graduate school because the thought of having to write a dissertation gave me immediate heart palpitations.

SCARY because, well HELLO, putting myself out there for the whole world to see and judge. I have spent almost my whole life living in fear of what others think of me and making decisions NOT to put myself in the vulnerable situations.

EXCITING because I am ready to do something new. Something different. Something fun.

So Where Is This Coming From?

I am turning 40 this month. My plan is to devote this year to finding my voice and living as I dream. I am going with the theme, Living Intentionally.

Now, this is a daily struggle. As I mentioned I live in fear. Not fear from anyone in particular, but rather fear of the unknown, fear of failure, fear of not being liked, fear of confrontation, fear of feeling uncomfortable, I could go on and on. So doing anything that would go against 40 freaking years of using fear, well that ain’t easy.

Not that I think I am going to die tomorrow but anything can happen. As you know, the older we get the more we start to evaluate our lives, reflect and realize that tomorrow is not promised. That being said, I want to make sure that as much of the time I am fortunate enough to have left on this amazing earth, it is well-spent. Not just sitting in the corner, afraid.

Honestly, I do not know exactly where this blog this is going.  I have been debating starting one for like, ever. The circumstances were not perfect, I couldn’t narrow down a topic, theme, niche….blah, blah, blah. So I just have to jump and see where I land. Getting started is always the hardest step.

Maybe this blog helps someone else. Maybe this blog just helps me. I am hoping for both! Optimally it brings growth, pushing past fears and focusing on what and who makes us happy!

Here is what I do know:

• I am going to be 40 and I want to make it freaking Fabulous! AND continue that throughout the decade.
• Family is the world to me! Any form of family. I have been blessed with my own little “nuclear” family. I also grew up in a very connected family of five with tons of aunts, uncles, and cousins always around. 
• Friendship is essential and when I am fortunate enough to get to spend time with friends, lots of laughter ensues.
• What brings me the most joy other than friends and family is TRAVEL which I plan to get back to doing more of. 
• Some of my favorite past times are watching musicals and playing games.
• I am seeking Freedom, mostly from my fears. But also financially and materially.
• I would love to share my journey and knowledge with those that feel the same way.

All of that being said, this blog will focus on the above list as I will be in #theyearof40. I hope you can relate to something I said here and come back to see what happens.

FOXXY AFTER FORTY WILL BE FIERCE AND FABULOUS!